feeling alone in a world of billions
Hi, I'm Syn. I'm a virtual streamer on Twitch at @st_synna. I stream twice a week these days - usually games (especially indie). Some people call streamers who use 2D/3D avatars 'VTuber', but I don't exactly follow VTuber conventions so and I'm not really sure how people define things anymore.
As someone who started streaming in 2021, I like that my little community slowly grew organically over the years. Slow growth means it's easier for me to adjust and to learn how to be more inclusive and family-friendly (it's tougher than I thought, keeping things chill and cosy). Tbqh, it boggles my mind that I even have friends who haven't gotten tired of me and my streams yet lol.
I tried blogging on Tumblr before this, but for unknown reasons, my account got deactivated a few months ago. It was a blog where I mostly reviewed shows I've seen and games I've played, so I was heartbroken when I suddenly couldn't access it anymore. It took weeks for them to rectify this mistake (they didn't even explain what happened after reinstating it) but I'm now wary of using Tumblr. I guess that's why I'm here.
Anyway, not sure what exactly I'm gonna write here, since I feel all stretched out as it is (do I really need to exist in another platform??) hmm. Maybe I'll just share my reflections of what I've learnt as a streamer. Maybe I'll whine about feeling lonely or tired. Maybe I'll just share some textual reminders that I'm more worthy than I believe.
The older I get, the less I wish I care about filtering my thoughts.
I'm learning to embrace my cancer sun and leo moon, one day at a time.